This has been a long time in the making and there were many fails and errors made while I researched “How to Blog”, however since I deliberately gave myself an ultimatum back in March when the lock-down, quarantine confinement, self-isolating, the many StayHome hashtag variations on the same Coronavirus crisis theme, I started off hopeful I would make the self-isolating productive and get serious about my writing.
Since I decided to pay $60 a year, I might as well not make this one more regretful pointless purchase.
Just start and keep going, right?
Since it’s hard to know where to start, I’ll start with something I wrote on my Facebook page when I shared my photos of the sunset in my backyard (for those who aren’t familiar with me, I live adjacent to a National Parc on the very West end of the island of Montreal.
Here is what I wrote and shared.
Some highlights from today.
And of course, thoughts I have in my head.
I can empathize with those who don’t fare well in this heat but I love days like this, especially 3-day long “canicules”
(French for heatwave, my bilingual privilege sometimes makes me decide to not translate words I like in their original language)
It was fantastic. While I enjoyed the sun, our AC unit was a welcome break until I stepped out to soak in that sun and that heat.
Today was a good day, I ignored the news, I ignored the feeds, I just focused on what I can control and that is my immediate environment and I realized I don’t have any big problems.
I’m the kind of person who prefers living day by day and this really has not been painful or desperate for me, personally.
Uncertain? That’s for sure but that doesn’t worry me because I stopped allowing worry to control my life a long time ago and I have not looked back since.
I don’t mind seeing people gather together at sunset. That’s them.
Nothing to do with me.
Not my circus. Not my monkeys.
I kind of like hearing people laughing and talking together. Not focusing so much on devices or crying alone.
This sunset, this view has helped me stay sane from day one.
As far as the government goes, I’m not your audience if you want to bitch and moan.
I’m not your audience if you have a firm stand against masks and need to kill any Messenger talking about masks.
I’m not your audience if you’re a conspiracy theorist, I will listen to you but you shouldn’t waste your time and there’s all kinds to make our world go… Completely mental!
I think if this pandemic has reminded me of anything is that it’s important to have boundaries and it should be allowed to mention them and expect people to respect those boundaries.
It is pretty insane and there is a lot of people suffering but if the people around you are safe and healthy, why waste your energy being a bleeding heart for the world’s suffering?
Again, that is no longer one of my battles.
To each our own.
There will always be idiots and there are countless platforms to denounce it which inadvertently sometimes makes its way to us when we were not looking for it.
You can control what content you choose to consume or even decide to be off the grid.
That’s the beauty of freedom. You can choose what you want to read at 6am to be in a good mood.
Live and let live.
We don’t know the full stories
As careful as we can be, there’s always a risk because there is still so much we don’t know.
The tricky thing is that paranoia isn’t something to be brushed aside. It is somewhat valid.
Compassion is something you can grow day in and day out until one day you have this peaceful perspective on the world around you because you realized all the time you wasted on things you can’t control and the focus you foolishly squandered on “Covidiots” and arguing with strangers on the internet because you live alone and it always seems like a victimless crime.
Eventually if you practice some self-preservation you get to have what so many fail to be …
Hold onto what makes you smile and what makes you happy and feel good.
Stop wasting your time on what you can’t stand.
Time and life is precious.
If Covid-19 has proven anything it’s that life is fucking fragile and no one is above dying and I just don’t want to be responsible for making someone sick knowing it could have been avoided if I hadn’t given in to craving a hug or coughing on someone because I was standing too close to them.
We have all taken risks which didn’t have any consequences but we can’t make it a habit because that is how we got into this mess in the first place.
Take a deep breath and let it all go.
Even if only for an hour. You will thank yourself later.Quoted from my latest Facebook page post / Wednesday, May 27th 2020 at 9:00pm
© Natacha G Filion | May 27th, 2020 |All Rights Reserved |
Sainte-Anne-de-Bellevue, Quebec, Canada.